Friday, April 29, 2011


Today is my last Friday here. I'm off on Monday because Scarlett's daycare is closed for training and then I have three more days next week. THREE.

I feel like a suck horribly at this whole blog thing. I read other blogs and feel like I don't write well enough. I'm not fashionable either. But ya know what? Sometimes I feel like some of the blogs out there only share the happy stuff. Hell with that I say, I'm sure they are in ratty clothes half of the time and have their bad days like the rest of us. And I'm just going to be myself and write what I want to write whether people read it or not. I need to write for myself and just be done with it.

Right now I'm not happy anyways which is a big part of it. I hate my job, although that's going to soon be remedied, have so little time with Scarlett, am very unhealthy and have all this extra weight and my brain is a mess. I'm hoping that with quitting, getting more active and being with Scarlett everyday will help me get back to myself.

I'm a nervous mess these days.

Thursday, April 21, 2011

The Easter "Munny" and I can't freaking concentrate.

Adorable right? The dress is too big but fortunately you can't tell in the picture. Skinny girl... and she would absolutely not wear the sandals I bought her. Girl has a major foot problem. Clipping her fingernails? No problem! Toenails? TORTURE! She doesn't like to have her bare feet touched - socks are fine though it seems. Will not wear sandals. Don't get that one.

But she can of course touch her own feet...

Anyways she thought the Easter Munny was the absolute shit. Only reason she wasn't smiling was due to all the people looking at her. She was looking around like you want me to entertain you guys or something?

Today has been spent completely slacking at work. I mean, 9 more days to go, and I may be physically here but not so much mentally. I've spent the day looking up library story times, community center activities including swim classes and $1 resident playdates and only $95 for the entire year for gym access for the whole family (well, minus Scarlett), dude! Can't wait to go to the zoo and Grant's Farm and the Science Center and City Museum and the Botanical Gardens and holy crap I'm excited. My awesome mother in law (I totally hit the mother in law jackpot guys!) is off on Mondays so it's on!

I used to hate the summer because I sweat horribly. I mean, I was a warm baby and sweat like crazy even if I'm skinny. Which I'm so not skinny right now. So the sweat? It's bad. But who cares what anyone thinks - I'm going to focus on Scarlett having fun.

And speaking of the extra weight, I have 30lbs to shed before I even think about getting pregnant again. And I'm not in a rush for that to happen because I want to enjoy the summer with Scarlett without having months and months of morning sickness again. So I'm hoping to lose the 30 I put on after I had her (yeah, after, ugh) and then the baby making activities will start in the fall/winter (hubba,hubba!). Ideally I'd like to lose, or rather need to lose, more around 60 but let's be realistic here and start small. Baby steps! I'm going to start eating better next week and will start exercising more then as well. It'll be easier at home anyways because I don't have a soda machine at work (baaaad) or people bringing in baked goods.

Better end my rambling, sorry I was all over the place but I. AM. EXCITED!

Tuesday, April 19, 2011

Awesome Weekend

I planned on including the billions of pictures I took this weekend but I'm at work so that would require emailing myself all of them from my phone and yada yada yada. So how about a written description for now? I'll make sure to actually post tonight from home so I can just pull the pictures in from iphoto. So much easier!

Matt worked on Saturday so Scarlett and I spent most of the day playing, coloring, etc. It was quite rainy out so we just kept busy inside.

Sunday we met up with Matt's parents at Bass Pro (better than the mall) to see the Easter bunny. They got there early and snagged the 3rd spot in line so that made a huge difference in Scarlett's mood. She is certainly not patient and standing in line is not her favorite thing. She thought the Easter bunny (or munny, as she says) was the coolest thing she had ever seen. We then went to see the fishies and then headed to Toys R Us from there.

We have been meaning to get her a Cozy Coupe for a while and they had them on sale for $39. We also had a $5 Little Tikes coupon so it was an awesome deal :)

Matt's parents took her home with them while we made a quick trip to Costco and then we hung out over there for a while.

She hadn't napped all day so on the trip home she was absolutely out. She slept for a few hours, had dinner, and then we played outside the rest of the day. Went for a stroller ride around the neighborhood while Matt put together the Cozy Coupe and then played in the backyard.

Guess that was a bit boring without pictures but they're coming, promise. Also I suck at this blogging thing (have tried several times over the past few years, but am going to attempt to keep this one up) but you can also follow me at twitter for more regular updates and pictures. Just started it and it's so much easier than blogging - quick updates and pictures via instagram are the way to go. Username is ohcrys (that was a title of a previously failed blog. Sigh).

Saturday, April 16, 2011

Tuesday, April 12, 2011


My brain has been all over the place lately... understandable considering in approximately 3 weeks I'm going to be done with my job.

I've been trying to remain motivated but it's been near impossible. There's been a lot of frustration at work due to politics and well I just feel USED.

Scarlett has seemed to make up for all of the frustration and stress by being cuddly and adorable. She's normally not incredibly cuddly but last night while Matt was working late she was attached to me for most of the night... and I ate it up. I just laid on the floor and she would be wild and try to wrestle with me and then come in for a hug or give me a kiss. So freaking sweet. I hated to put her to bed when the time came but I knew if I didn't she'd be an absolute crab in the morning.

She was pretty difficult this morning despite going to bed by a reasonable time... not wanting anything we tried to give her for breakfast and being so particular about this jacket or that jacket and various other things. I know, normal toddler behavior right? She is officially 20 months today and it's painful yet exciting at the same time to see just how grown up she is these days. She remained silent during the car ride to daycare but when I got her in she just buried her little head between my neck/shoulder and just didn't want me to go. And it was so, so hard to walk out and just go to work.

Soon she'll have her mama all the time. I know it will not always be easy but I'm up for the challenge. And I can't freaking wait.

Wednesday, April 6, 2011


Today is my birthday. And also a craptastic day so far. Matt is working late due to a meeting and won't be home until after the baby punk is fast asleep and drooling on her bear bear. He is, however, bringing me dinner. So that's good, right?

Tomorrow in my morning touch base with my boss I'm going to break the news that I'm quitting... and it will be my official 4 week notice. Part of me doesn't want to give them that much notice due to many factors but then again I'm the only one here at this site with no backup for site specific items. So since I care TOO much about everything and I do care about the people left behind, I'm going to give a month's notice. Still scary as hell though. With budget cuts and layoffs and all that going on now and the previous years, everything is tight and they're not going to be happy.

Gotta do what's right for myself and my family, however. Too much stress right now and I'm not the mom I want to be (and know I can be). I seriously need to get my health back in check as well as I'm a mess medically.

May 21st would be 10 years for me. So yeah, although I'm not happy right now it's still going to be hard.

Friday, April 1, 2011

...and so the adventure begins

I've been horrible about keeping up past blogs. So time to start new, right?

The oh-so-exciting details: 28. Located in the midwest where the weather can be 80 one day and snow the next. Wife to my handsome bearded genius and momma to a feisty toddler. Office monkey at the current, soon to be a stay at home mom (brokesville here I come!).

Next Wednesday, 4/6 I'll be 29. The next day I'm going to give my 4 week notice at work. Scared out of my wits but excited all at the same time.